You're not the only one.

I know I talk a big game; like I'm invincible.

I know I make it sound like I have it "all" together; like it's ALL part of the plan.

I know I come across confident; secure in what I do.

But it is not true....


I am weak and vulnerable, and bleed easy.


I take showers and sometimes miss parts.


I get angry and swear.


I get scared and I run.



And the more time I spend with you, the more my insecurities come up.

I get afraid that you won't want me if you knew....

I get worried that I won't want you...


I wanna know love, and I wanna know you.


I wanna let "Him" write my love story;

...for the pen never fit quite right in my hand.



So how do I let go?


How do I release?


How do I embrace?



If I withdraw, it is not from you. It is from love.


You see, though I say I want love...

...it scares me.



Love is the one thing in life that I cannot control. It is elusive. It is un-tamable.


And it is the one thing that, in order to receive,
I must surrender to.


How do I surrender to what I fear?